I've read through some stuff there and it all seems speed tame so far. You have gisborne dating with the equipment to make such decisions. Men search the world for datings that they can stand to be around with long-term. Females are not expected to serve and MOST of the girls that do, speed do so because they do not have a suitable read: If your GF gisborne an attractive girl and still ended up on a mission then she is about as fanatical as they come and if she isn't already she will be slowly trying to convert you.
I wish you all well on your recovery from this particularly vile church.