If my mother needed her surgeon's attention, I wouldn't want him to be thinking about his wife's lamenting that he's never home, usx romantic, etc.
I can be part of youttube church family whether my spouse goes or not. Don't expect a traditional marriage I am sorry for your story.
Many, many lapsed Mormons darm the true vision of the gospel at some time in their lives and desire to repent and become observant again.
God roots for both our teamsвthe hopeful screw-ups and the straights.